* BARBARA Kinghorn was born in Johannesburg, South Africa, of Scottish
parents. In the early sixties, at the age of 17, she became South
African Highland Dancing Champion and travelled to Scotland to compete
in the Highland Games. On her return home she began a very successful
career in the theatre, winning the Actress of the Year Award in 1973. In
1975 she left South Africa and came to live in Britain, where she very
quickly made a name for herself on the West End stage, on television and
as a member of the Royal Shakespeare Company. In 1985 she started her
own company, Stage by Stage, which she now runs as well as travelling
extensively in the United States lecturing on the theatre and giving
master classes. The following is an edited extract from the opening
chapters of her first book, the remarkable autobiography Miss McKirdy's
Daughters Will Now Dance the Highland Fling, in which she tells the
compelling and heart-rending story of an eccentric, tragic and
indomitable Scottish family.
MISS McKirdy lives with her three daughters, Jilly, Annie and me, in a
Dutch-gabled house on the outskirts of Johannesburg. The corrugated iron
roof is painted red and the bricks are the colour of dried blood. The
house is guarded by four strong palm trees and surrounded by a perimeter
fence of stone and spiky steel. Our father lives with us, sort of.
The most important thing in our house is Highland dancing. My mother
and Auntie Edie teach it and we three girls are champions at it. (I won
my first medal when I was three years and four months old.) We practise
every day and go to classes three times a week. My mother has founded
the Highland Dancing Association of the Transvaal and is on the South
African Official Board of Highland Dancing (which is affiliated to the
Scottish Board of Control). She also teaches elocution. My father is
bored to death by it all.
Jilly's dancing reminds me of the way Daddy eats his porridge. Neat,
measured mouthfuls -- but instead of sprinkling sugar on top he insists
on salt. Jilly is what Mummy calls a ''technician''. She likes to get
her foot in exactly the right position on her leg and her precision
placing in the Sword Dance is famous. She says the Sword Dance is her
favourite because it's logical like maths, which is her best school
subject. One thing she absolutely refuses to do is smile. The Highland
Fling is about joy, so when you dance it you should show people just how
happy and victorious you are. Showing facial expression is something new
they started doing in the colonies; the purists in Scotland don't
believe in it.
Jilly and Annie and I must have won over a thousand medals and
trophies between us. When Mummy used to dance she won hundreds, too. In
those days in Johannesburg, the medals she won were made of 18-carat
gold, and she also won tea-sets, tortoise-shell hairbrushes, leather
suitcases, clocks, and all sorts of things that go in display cabinets.
I love the way Annie dances, everyone does. Mummy and Auntie Edie
shout: ''Be more accurate with your positions!'' But when Annie gets
going she couldn't care less about technique, all she thinks of is
having a wonderful time. She smiles and flings her legs and leaps. She's
like a young buck running free. Maybe that's how they danced the first
Highland Fling. I don't know how I dance. Mummy says I'm a jelly, which
makes me cry, and then she says: ''What do you expect -- bouquets?''
We go to Highland dancing on Wednesdays and Fridays after school from
two until six, and Saturday mornings from eight until 12. There are
other dancing studios in Arts House but ours is the only one teaching
Highland and Irish dancing. The others teach exciting things like
ballet, tap and Spanish. They have pretty costumes and learn lots of
different dances. We just practise the same ones over and over again. I
get so sick of it all.
I'm also so sick of the lectures about ''sacrifice'', ''the family
name'', and ''duty''. Mummy is always telling us how ''dancing sprang
from man's natural emotions''. It doesn't feel like that when you're
doing the toe and heel step for the twentieth time. She says the
conquering Highlanders crossed their swords in triumph and danced over
them. I'm sure it wouldn't have mattered to them if they'd kicked their
swords. But if we so much as even touch ours we're disqualified from the
competition.
In the afternoons and at night we have private lessons at home. Mummy
teaches us in the front room or the kitchen. When we're learning to
smile Mummy always says: ''Copy Annie. People love that smile.''
Jilly can't and won't do it. Jilly's a great giggler but only when it
comes naturally and not to order. I can do it but it makes my lips
tremble.
GRANNY MAC is my mother's mother. She lives in a mine house on
theRobinson Deep gold-mine with her daughter, Aunt Edie, and her son,
Uncle Rob, and his wife, Betty. They have a son who's already grown up
and gone away.
Granny hates Betty and Betty hates her. They've stayed together in the
same house for over 20 years without ever talking to each other.
They live separate lives in their bedrooms. Nobody ever goes into the
sitting-room. The bathroom isn't used very often either. Granny thinks
cleanliness is next godliness but too much washing destroys the natural
oils in your skin. Betty never washes because she hates to waste money
on soap. Granny thinks she's disgusting. Uncle Rob washes in the
gold-mine after work.
WE ARE Scots. Mummy and Daddy were born in Scotland. We are
Presbyterians, Calvinists, living in a Calvinist land. But Mummy earns
her daily bread working for Catholic nuns. And Daddy earns his working
for Jews. We three Protestant girls are educated at the convent where
Miss McKirdy started teaching when she was 18 years old. We have to be
grateful that Mummy teaches there because the nuns give her a special
rate -- three for the price of one.
Mummy is very good at lying to the nuns. ''Remember you are
Protestants,'' she always says to us. ''You're not to believe all that
Catholic nonsense. Just do as the nuns tell you, because you're well
brought-up girls.''
In my photograph album I have a Kodak snapshot of Jilly, Annie and me
-- Daddy's three smart girls. We are standing in the miniature Japanese
gardens in Durban dressed in our McGregor tartan kilts, white
hand-crocheted socks, cream satin blouses and black patent-leather
shoes. Our hair is clean and shining and cut-in the page-boy style. We
are smiling.
AT THE outbreak of the First World War Miss McKirdy was nine years
old. She stood on the steps of the Johannesburg city hall, dressed in a
red velvet coat trimmed with swansdown and recited, ''You're a better
man than I am Gunga Din'' so movingly that scores of young men dashed
off to the recruiting office to join the army. Years later she would say
to us: ''In my whole life that is the one thing I wish I'd never done.''
Miss McKirdy and my father were introduced to each other at the
Johannesburg Caledonian Society. Right from the start Granny Mac
disliked him. She thought him too old, too much of a drinker and from
the wrong part of Glasgow. She tried her best to stop my mother seeing
him but Miss McKirdy, like her sister Mary, had a mind of her own. Mary
had defied Granny and run away with a Cockney bus conductor called Alf
and Granny never saw them again. She didn't push too hard because Mummy
was her favourite daughter and anyway Daddy was, at least, a Scot.
Mummy believed it was her duty to stay with her parents for as long as
she could and insisted on a five-year engagement while she saved up
enough money to pay for her own wedding. Years later she would say to
us: ''Every woman should have a nest-egg that her husband doesn't know
about.''
However, her nest-egg was only half laid when a nasty rumour spread
through the Scottish fraternity. It was whispered that her fiance
already had a wife and children in Scotland.
When the gossip reached Granny Mac, she packed a bag, took a train to
Cape Town and set sail for Scotland on a Union Castle mail ship. She
also had a nest-egg her husband didn't know about.
Granny Mac's, seven-week fact-finding mission was twofold. If the
rumour proved true she would be able to put a stop to the wedding. If
not, she would at least have cleared her daughter's name.
On arrival in Glasgow she took a taxi to the address she'd been given
and demanded to be told the truth. It turned out that it was my father's
brother, Ian, who was married with three children. Satisfied, Granny Mac
sailed on the next ship back to Cape Town and took the train to
Johannesburg. She threatened to knock the teeth down the throat of any
person who ever mentioned it again.
Right from the very beginning, Daddy loathed Granny Mac. ''A bloody
old battle-axe,'' is what he called her. In fact, the only member of my
mother's family that Daddy liked was Grandpa Mac. He was a gentle man
who dealt with Granny Mac by following a policy of passive resistance.
She punished his placidity by refusing to talk to him, sometimes keeping
up the silence for as long as two years, communicating only through
their children.
However badly he was treated at home, Grandpa Mac was respected at
work. Whenever there was a seemingly insoluble problem, the bosses would
send someone to the workshops to ''fetch Mac'' . . .
He had started work in Scotland at the age of 11 and was what was
known as a ''half-timer''; half-day at school, half-day down the coal
mines. By the age of 20 he was working in John Brown's shipyard on the
Clyde, where they were building the Queen Mary and many other great
liners. The propellers on the Lusitania were made by a team led by my
Grandpa Mac. He had no degrees after his name but, in our family, he was
always referred to as ''your grandfather -- who built the propellers on
the Lusitania''.
By the time Grandpa Mac was 30 his lungs were so damaged that he was
told to emigrate to a warm, dry climate. He left Granny Mac and their
five children in Glasgow and set sail for sunny South Africa where the
Witwatersrand gold-mines were snapping up Scots. They needed men with
the courage to go down in cages, 6000 feet below the ground, to crawl
through tunnels no more than two feet wide, to drill the rockface and
bring up the gold which was then melted, moulded and locked up again, in
vaults underground.
DADDY has a birth certificate but he doesn't have a mother He has a
stepmother who is also his aunt. His mother died when he was two and his
older brother was three. Almost immediately his father, Grandpa James,
married his mother's sister.
Daddy is very fond of saying that he was treated like a bloody servant
by his stepmother. He always calls her ''she''. While ''she'' had babies
and their father worked, the two wee boys did all the fetching and
carrying.
He does have some happy memories though of those early days in
Glasgow, most of them to do with funerals. He enjoyed riding up front
with the driver on the horse-drawn hearse each time ''she'' lost another
child (six in all).
After his demob from the Royal Navy in 1919, my father couldn't find
work in Glasgow and took the boat to South Africa where he got a job
electrifying a town called Vereeniging, which means ''union''.
His letters home to Scotland were full of enthusiasm for life in what
he called ''the land of milk and honey''. So much so that his father and
stepmother packed up their few possessions and set sail, too, taking
with them their few surviving younger children.
MY MOTHER is 40 when she finds herself pregnant with me, Just when she
thought all ''that'' was over. At first she mistakes me for the change
of life. But she is experienced enough to recognise a foetal kick when
she gets one. With a sinking heart she remembers a particular night the
previous March when it had turned unexpectedly chilly and she and Daddy
had cuddled up.
On November 21, 1944, as the Allies advanced across Europe, Miss
McKirdy gives birth to a third daughter in the front bedroom of the
Dutch-gabled house. I am no beauty. Years later, Mummy will say: ''I
really can't remember when you were born, dear. It may have been in the
morning. But I do remember your Granny Mac looking at you and saying,
'This one's been here before'.''
* [CPYR]Barbara Kinghorn 1995. Extracted from Miss McKirdy's Daughters
Will Now Dance the Highland Fling, published by Black Swan at #5.99. All
Rights Reserved. Barbara Kinghorn will be reading from her work at James
Thin's bookshop, 57 George Street, Edinburgh, at 6.30 this evening.
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