Adeline Amar, from Nimes in southern France, has worked at the National Galleries of Scotland for eight and a half years and has lived in Edinburgh for more than ten.
Now she is considering her future following the Brexit vote, and has also, after the victory of Donald Trump in the Presidential elections, thining again about moving to the US, where her brother works.
Now working in the NGS press office, where she works daily with the media and national and international artists and curators, she said the Brexit vote result was a "trauma".
She says she will not now invest in a house or car in Scotland until she knows for sure she can stay. At present, she said she cannot plan medium to long term.
Ms Amar, 32, came to Scotland as an Erasmus student, to study an MA in literature at the University of Edinburgh and stayed. She considers Scotland to be a 'home from home'. She added: "From the reaction I have had from people since the vote, it maybe it is my home, but it has made me question a lot of things about the past decade."
She says: "The next day after the vote, I really didn't think it would happen. And there was the shock of seeing what happened in England and Wales compared to Scotland and Northern Ireland, but it was nice to see that pretty much everyone I know, here, shared the same sentiment.
"There is uncertainty over what is going to happen next. I know it is going to take a couple of years before anything happens, but it doesn't make it any better to be honest.
"When on the Friday [after the Brexit vote], Nicola Sturgeon [First Minister of Scotland] made that speech saying she felt felt very different from Westminster it was good to hear. But I feel like I am still in the denial phase of grief, because I still don't now what is going to happen."
On Ms Strugeon's speech she added: "It did make me feel better, it really did, also I still find it very difficult to accept that we EU citizens couldn't vote, because we did in the Independence Referendum, and so that it almost makes it feel like we don't contribute to the country because we were not part of the decision.
"I got very emotional hearing her speech."
She said that she is now reconsidering staying in the country, "simply because it is hard to make plans", adding: "I assume I am not going to be kicked out, fingers crossed, but I don't know whether there will be Visas involved, and in terms of organisations, whether it will be more difficult for them to employ EU nationals. It is unsettling."
She added: "At lot of it makes me feel unwelcome in the UK, as a whole. I know it's not everyone, but part of me thinks: 'do they want me here?'
"But I haven't felt heard much different from EU nationals and UK citizens, because everyone is equally confused."
Her parents in France do not follow every turn of the debate in the UK, but Ms Amar added: "They said, 'surely they cannot just kick you out' and I said, 'well, I just don't know.' They see it as a more settled thing than we see here."
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