Alec 'Chibi' Gray, 21, who grew up in the Glasgow area as a girl, describes another stage in his transition to becoming a man
Everyone should have bragging rights. Whether the task you've completed is minuscule or enormous, you should have the right to tell everyone if you feel proud of your achievement.
Being a person with little to no common sense, it's hard to fathom that I actually got through higher education. That's right everyone; I am now a bachelor of science!
I'm really excited about this milestone in my life; for once I actually feel like a proper adult. So to celebrate such a terrific achievement for an idiot, we decided to go to the beach.
I love it by the shore, the sea breeze blowing through your hair, the hot sand enclosing itself around your toes. I especially like the water, the salty expanse of blue disappearing into the horizon.
I'm not a person who meekly dips their toes in the shallows, no. I'm the type of person to take a running jump into the deeper waters, getting myself and everyone else absolutely soaking wet. So that's what I did, enacting a poor interpretation of a dolphin.
When the sun had disappeared behind the clouds and it was time to leave, however, the fun didn't exactly continue.
Being transgender has its difficulties, especially when you have to wear a binder. If you've never heard of a binder before, it's a piece of clothing that can be made of simple material or medical spandex which the wearer has tight to their skin, compressing their chest to look more masculine.
They come in all shapes and sizes, mostly in the shape of a vest. They can be pulled over your head, fastened with Velcro, or closed with the aid of a series of clips.
It was an hour's car ride home and I wasn't for soaking the backseat with my wet clothes and there were no changing facilities nearby.
I was the only one soaking wet so we came up with the idea of a mobile changing room and put towels across all of the windows, my friends standing guard.
It was easy enough to change quickly in the back seat of the hatchback until it came to my binder. In the small space it was hard for me to do up the clips at the side and had to get help from a friend, my face a beetroot colour as she helped to 'do me up'.
It's safe to say that I'll be bringing a simpler binder to change into next time.
My favourite binders to wear are a vest type which looks like a normal top on the outside, but has a half-chest binder attached to the inside, fastened with clips. They bind very well and are comfortable to wear under your clothes. They're hard to fasten at first, but with practice you'll become a pro.
The binders I wear are a cheaper alternative at around £10 compared to the more popular over-the-top binders on www.underworks.com. These are made of medical grade spandex and are great when brand new as they bind very well and are easy to put on. The drawback is that they will stretch out over time and can get expensive to replace.
Being a larger chested trans guy is pretty frustrating, being that I'll never have a completely flat chest until after surgery.
I've had most, if not all types of binders and the worst for my body type has to be a wraparound binder. These are made of a piece of material that wraps around your chest, fastened by clips.
The fact that it doesn't have any straps didn't help my case as the first and last time I wore one, I was on a night out at a pub. I was outside getting some fresh winter air; talking to some strangers I'd just met.
I'd gotten rather immersed in the conversation and jumped a little, the wraparound binder slipping down to my navel. It was the most embarrassing thing to happen to me on a night out and luckily the others were heading back inside at that moment, so I could quickly fix myself before I followed them inside.
As a note to bigger chested trans guys: Do not, I repeat, do not wear a binder with no straps as it will only end badly...
For further information:
LGBT Youth Scotland is the largest youth and community-based organisation for lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people in Scotland. They hold regular Trans Youth groups for young people who identify as transgender or are gender variant.
All About Trans is a project run by On Road, a not-for-profit organisation that works in partnership with communities to solve social problems using the web and the media. All About Trans is about encouraging better understanding between media professionals and transgender people and inspiring more accurate and sensitive representation in print, broadcast and online media in the UK.
Why are you making commenting on The Herald only available to subscribers?
It should have been a safe space for informed debate, somewhere for readers to discuss issues around the biggest stories of the day, but all too often the below the line comments on most websites have become bogged down by off-topic discussions and abuse.
heraldscotland.com is tackling this problem by allowing only subscribers to comment.
We are doing this to improve the experience for our loyal readers and we believe it will reduce the ability of trolls and troublemakers, who occasionally find their way onto our site, to abuse our journalists and readers. We also hope it will help the comments section fulfil its promise as a part of Scotland's conversation with itself.
We are lucky at The Herald. We are read by an informed, educated readership who can add their knowledge and insights to our stories.
That is invaluable.
We are making the subscriber-only change to support our valued readers, who tell us they don't want the site cluttered up with irrelevant comments, untruths and abuse.
In the past, the journalist’s job was to collect and distribute information to the audience. Technology means that readers can shape a discussion. We look forward to hearing from you on heraldscotland.com
Comments & Moderation
Readers’ comments: You are personally liable for the content of any comments you upload to this website, so please act responsibly. We do not pre-moderate or monitor readers’ comments appearing on our websites, but we do post-moderate in response to complaints we receive or otherwise when a potential problem comes to our attention. You can make a complaint by using the ‘report this post’ link . We may then apply our discretion under the user terms to amend or delete comments.
Post moderation is undertaken full-time 9am-6pm on weekdays, and on a part-time basis outwith those hours.
Read the rules hereComments are closed on this article